we'll this month has been a downer I've been really worried about what I'm going to do when I get home bacause I honestly wouldn't have a clue. It's gone so fast I don't know where the time has gone :( but i know everything will be okay). i dont want to leave yet though i am having loads of fun and have bagan getting closer and closer with my host family and friends which is only going ot make it harder. but i guess its part of the experience. these last weeks havent been very exciting because well i havent done alot its been all school and italian lessons. this weekend we go to cremona for the nugat festival and im excited for that we get to meet the other ditrict too which will be great as well. christmas is coming up fast and i dont kow what i will do with myself on christmas its going to be weird becuase wel fro one its winter and its getting colder and colder and im freezing all the time an dits only november but ill go fom one of the coldst winters to the middle of summer in australia and honestly cant remember how hot it gets i just know its hot and people all ways remind me that i live in a desert because to italians thats all australia is and thats why everyone lives near the beach. they were so shoicked when i show them where im friom and they always say but its not near ythe beach. so they think one day i will die because its too hot and i dont have water .
i love expaining out country it makes me feel good i guess thats why they call us ambassitors and the more people ask the more they get interested and the more i tell them the more they want to go and honestly its the best feeling. so many people are coming to australia becauise of me (thats what they say anyway) but also in a way promoting exchange becaus eits the best experience i coudl have ever asked for and yes its hard as hell and no one knows how hard ot is untill youve experienced it but as hard as it is i am happy with my progress and self development from being here im quite content with my exchange and i would have changed anything from being here, ive done so many things experienced for myself and im my own person now some people say that i have changed too much that i am a completely different person and they dont like how ive changed but i am happy and this is a beautiful life i live and i didnt realise how beautiful it was until i came here for years all i was worried about was exams and making people happy and worrying what people thought of me and when i look back now i was a boring person and if i was still a boring person then thats who i was supposed to be but i am my own person i have a personality and my body it what i want it to be not what people think it should be. ive done things i know people wont like but i do them anyways because i can make my own decisions things that make me happy i am an independant person i am me and this is who i need to be. i am stronger now then ever befor because of this experience and i wouldn't change anything ive done or went through because as a person ive been through challenges ive been out of my comfort zone for a long time i have achieved alot in a matter of months things that if i didnt go on exchnage i would still be waiting to do and even though i still have no ide what i am going to do or be when i get home or in my future years there is so much out there and there are opportunities and possibilities everywhere. being 19 (almost) there is so much time for me and other people to figure it out not making quick and fast decisions and doing what we want to do not what our parents want for us or our friends but something we want as individuals because thats what we are. less then 2 months before im home so ill see you all then.
